January 2012
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What a difference a year makes….
This time last year I had a shitty boyfriend, a shitty car, shitty friends, shitty apartment, shitty attitude, shitty phone, and ect. Throughout the year I shed A LOT of tears, did and said A LOT of shitty things but I am glad it all happened because it led new things to be thankful for.
Initially I wanted to write a whiny entry explaining all the bad shit that has happened, instead, here is a...
December 2011
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I am learning the hard way that there a good reasons my therapist frowns upon dating right now. Being the naughty little bitch I am, I started seeing someone casually and got into him and he fell off the face of the earth. I just don’t understand why this keeps happening. It pisses me off when people can’t just be straight up and honest.
I haven’t done a diary card entry since the 24th. Oh crap, I am sooooo getting yelled at next week.
"Teen Mom 2" is the train wreck that I just can't...
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I dont know how to describe my mood today.
Lonely
Happy. Anxious
Shame. Pride
Agitated
Ugh. Pick one?
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midwesthotmess:
I’d Just Be Fool Enough To Fall...
Why isn't assault legal for solving stupidity?
I think a look of disgust followed by a high five to the face would be a reasonable solution for stopping people from continuing their reign of stupidity.
I keep getting messages from family on Facebook about how I was SOOO fun this year and how great it was to catch up. Yes, this is why you need to let me drink in awkward social moments. My verbal diarhea will perk the room up and cause some misguided comments.
Today was so much more enjoyable after drinking 2 liters of wine. Now, I am watching Christmas movies with the family and getting stressed out over “words with friends”.
Christmas with my dad’s side today. I will be drinking wine, with a straw, from the bottle. My mom keeps warning me to be nice,because my douche bag uncle and his girlfriend will be there, but I really don’t want to. I mean c’mon, I only have one time a year that I have to see him so why can’t I say something that reflects my feelings that will last all year?
I can’t decide if I want to make the long trek home tonight or not. If I am, I really need to get my ass into gear and pack. I just hate packing.
Three dates and I already fucked up. Why can’t guys be honest about their feelings instead of just falling off the face of the earth.
People always tease me for going over the top with cooking. I just hate eating things out of the box and would rather use fresh ingredients that I can personalize. Half the fun of cooking is being able to experiment and meld flavors, like my three cheese spice mac and cheese.
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How Brooke wants to change Christmas...
Recently my roommate has been going crazy with buying presents for Christmas. Everyday she has a new gift for someone under the tree and is rewarded with a higher credit card bill. She is the worst with buying gifts for her boyfriend, they keep a running total of how much they have spent on one another and the other one tries to top it. It is getting ridiculous! So far she has spent over $600 on...
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“The attitude you have as a parent is what your kids will learn from more than...”
– Jim Henson (via undercovermother)
If this is really true, my kids are screwed. (via thedaddycomplex)
Oh shit. Suprise sleepover. I will keep it in my pants. I will keep it in my pants. Oh god I’m gassy this wont end well.
Date three and I am not acting insane and over analyzing his every move. I hope this stays.
It’s been two weeks and no period…and I’m sensitive to smells…and I’m really nauseous. Uh oh. I think I’m getting the flu. I can’t be pregnant from a bad hookup.
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I can have platonic male friends. I can have platonic male friends. I can have platonic male friends.
I ate all of my days calories in one hour. Dear god I need help.
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I admitted to the first person, my first love, that I have Borderline personality disorder. I had to do something after the mess I made on Tuesday and the shame that followed. I am nervous of eternal rejection of the one person who has tried to be by my side, from a distance, when he could.
I have spent the whole day doing nothing but eating and clearing out my DVR. Ok, so I deserve some credit, I worked out in front of the tv, and cleaned.
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After years of frustration and depression, I was diagnosed with a “mental illness” known as borderline personality disorder. It was really hard for me to hear the diagnosis thanks to the negative associations with mental illnesses. Automatically, we all think of crazy people who walk around talking to themselves or don’t act like a same, controlled human. Ok, I guess I am crazy,...
I’m watching a Christmas movie where the dad surprises his estranged family by showing up at the party with a puppy in a Rubbermaid tote. Instead of being able to enjoy the forced joy from the scene, I am thinking about how that puppy would be dead had this been real life. Surprise! Your father, whom you haven’t seen in a year because he chose work over his family, is back! And he...
