Brooke. 23. Student. Nanny.
Cooking. Organization. Crafting.
Music Lover. Creative. Emotional. Hilarious. Smart Ass
I may have said this before…
I feel like a crazy Clark Kent who’s kryptonite is abandonment and relationships.
To the average person I am a loving, smart, funny, happy-go-lucky, optimist…
To my close friends I am the above in addition to being over emotional and obsessive…
But to my mom, psychologist, therapist, and self I am the above plus a sufferer of BPD with killer mood swings, a history of self mutilation, abuse, suicide attempts, hostility, bad relationships, addiction and so on.
It gets tough living the double life and putting on a happy face when all I want to do is go hide in bed. The positive change is that I am no longer suicidal because I realize I have things to live for.
I really hope that other people suffering from mental disorders are able to get the help they need and see a reason for living too.